There is nothing like an injury to put life into perspective. Ok, it is only a minor injury, nothing to worry over. I won't get into the gory details or bore you with hypothetical accounts of how it could have been so much worse. The point is that I have so many things that I want in my life, and I'm not doing anything about it. I go to work, I come home. I have my family and volunteer projects, but I am not doing anything for myself.
So, after a few months (or several) of being more crushed than I would admit about my first rejection, I set myself up for a couple more. I received a very nice reply yesterday about how agenting is subjective and though my ms wasn't right for her, she wished me luck and sent me back out into the world. I will find the right agent, I just can't give up.
I think about author Mike Mullin (ASHFALL and ASHEN WINTER) who tells of being rejected by all of the agents he queried before finding his publisher. ASHFALL has since garnered much critical acclaim and awards, which you can read about here. Perhaps middle grade is harder than YA, unless you are JK Rowling, but even she had to endure rejection in the beginning. I can, and will find the right people to help make this book happen.
Back to researching agents.
Why not just query publishers? I have thought about it. I feel like going the agent route is right for me. I want someone who has knowledge and connections in the world of publishing. It is a big, scary world, the world of publishing. I want a navigator.
In the meantime, I will continue to write/edit/rewrite something completely different. I have to get back into a regular schedule. Blogging helps keep me focused, even though I do it only sporadically.